“Every form of refuge has it’s price.” -Lyin’ Eyes, Eagles “The more real you become, the more unreal the world becomes.” – John Lennon Never apologize for what you are. I want you in all your weirdness and all your FREAK. I want to be challenged in every single interaction I have with you, because… Read More The thing you are embarrassed to admit you love, and dream about all the time ….that’s your soul mission.
“I seriously just don’t know what to say in groups, I get anxiety. I never have anything to say! Girls at the bar can be hostile. Like why did you get all dressed up and come to the bar, to sit there facing your girlfriend all night?” I caught my breath and gazed into the bookcase, avoiding… Read More Context Dependence
I got into bed Saturday night at 3 am, exhausted from a night of exerting the effort of facial expressions required to match the synthetic enthusiasm of drunk people. The night concluded with an Uber ride that was 1.6x the normal fare because of the increased demand, as all the drunks migrated home, some with… Read More Little Deaths, Masks, and the Existential Joke (Halloween Party)
I have been hesitant to publish any writing since I arrived back home from Peru 12 days ago. To be honest, I have been fragile, like a pregnant hormonal mother, fluctuating from despondent sadness to being overcome with gratitude and love. I have cried more and given more hugs in those 2 weeks in Peru, than I… Read More My Ayahuasca experience: Earth-Shattering
I’m feeling a nice little kick from the extended-release Niacin vitamins I took one an hour ago. I take my highs where I can get them. It was suggested to me that the mosquitoes in the Amazon will be repelled by this in my blood. They tend to like sweet, sugary blood. I have began… Read More My Ayahuasca/Huachuma retreat in Peru: Pre-Trip Introduction and rant
What if our waking consciousness is a vastly more nuanced entity, with a depth and variety of function, way beyond what our simple minds can comprehend? We are relatively young, a blip in 100,000’s of years of human evolution that will continue until our planet explodes. Our bodies age on a linear scale of deterioration, but… Read More On the benefits of Magic Mushrooms (Psilocybin)
“The depressed person avoids the possibility of independence and more life precisely because there are what threaten him with destruction and death. He holds on to the people who have enslaved him in a network of crushing obligations, belittling interaction, precisely because these people are his shelter, his strength, his protection against the world. Like… Read More The Denial of Death