“He’s a nice guy, a little awkward though.” I hear, in a low but clearly audible tone, as I leave the group of 15 gathered around a table for a cake, and a birthday song. I am about 20 feet away from the table, walking away, as I stop for a moment to grab my… Read More INNER CHILD HEALING: confronting the complex labyrinths of illusions I have constructed in my own mind, to shield myself from a deep-rooted belief that I was never worthy of love, and that I never fit this world.
It’s a beautiful thing getting to know yourself. It’s been a long slow, recovery. I kept Peter in a cell most of his life, sliding a bowl of porridge in through the slot, and a glass of water, keeping him in solitary confinement all day, every day, letting him out once a day for… Read More no, sorry, I’m in a relationship, I’m dating myself
“Nature loves courage.” -Terence Mckenna In my humble opinion, there is absolutely nothing to fear about mushrooms. These are benevolent plant teachers, of earth and of the larger galaxy. I believe my spiritual readiness, my willingness to do what it took to excavate the demons in my self and to bring my shadow side up… Read More Lessons from a 9 gram Psilocybin Mushroom trip
I step up to the altar where Don Carlos hands me the cup. The aroma finds my nostrils and I feel my throat muscles contract in protest. I give pause for five seconds, trying to convey reverence to the four maestros sitting behind the altar. The altar is adorned with jaguar skulls, 20… Read More My 2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony-“White-knuckle cosmic sleigh ride”/Hitting the Wall
How to summarize the ayahuasca experience? If I was Shakespeare I couldn’t come close, but here are my meager 10 attempts. 1. It was as if Mother Ayahuasca (you will hear this commonly when working “the medicine”, if you call it “a drug” around me, I will correct you, just FYI). Our incessant need in… Read More 10 METAPHORS FOR THE AYAHUASCA EXPERIENCE
I have been hesitant to publish any writing since I arrived back home from Peru 12 days ago. To be honest, I have been fragile, like a pregnant hormonal mother, fluctuating from despondent sadness to being overcome with gratitude and love. I have cried more and given more hugs in those 2 weeks in Peru, than I… Read More My Ayahuasca experience: Earth-Shattering
I’m feeling a nice little kick from the extended-release Niacin vitamins I took one an hour ago. I take my highs where I can get them. It was suggested to me that the mosquitoes in the Amazon will be repelled by this in my blood. They tend to like sweet, sugary blood. I have began… Read More My Ayahuasca/Huachuma retreat in Peru: Pre-Trip Introduction and rant
What if our waking consciousness is a vastly more nuanced entity, with a depth and variety of function, way beyond what our simple minds can comprehend? We are relatively young, a blip in 100,000’s of years of human evolution that will continue until our planet explodes. Our bodies age on a linear scale of deterioration, but… Read More On the benefits of Magic Mushrooms (Psilocybin)