INNER CHILD HEALING: confronting the complex labyrinths of illusions I have constructed in my own mind, to shield myself from a deep-rooted belief that I was never worthy of love, and that I never fit this world.

“He’s a nice guy, a little awkward though.”  I hear, in a low but clearly audible tone, as I leave the group of 15 gathered around a table for a cake, and a birthday song.   I am about 20 feet away from the table, walking away, as I stop for a moment to grab my… Read More INNER CHILD HEALING: confronting the complex labyrinths of illusions I have constructed in my own mind, to shield myself from a deep-rooted belief that I was never worthy of love, and that I never fit this world.

A letter to my Conservative, anti-drug friends and family

My ego is my most prized possession.  My concept of self, the stories I tell myself that are reinforced by my subconscious, are strengthened and trained at a world class level- Floyd Mayweather’s training schedule, it never stops, he is in conditioning mind and body all day, every day.   The negative forces of my… Read More A letter to my Conservative, anti-drug friends and family

My 2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony-“White-knuckle cosmic sleigh ride”/Hitting the Wall

I step up to the altar where Don Carlos hands me the cup.   The aroma finds my nostrils and I feel my throat muscles contract in protest.   I give pause for five seconds, trying to convey reverence to the four maestros sitting behind the altar. The altar is adorned with jaguar skulls, 20… Read More My 2nd Ayahuasca Ceremony-“White-knuckle cosmic sleigh ride”/Hitting the Wall