I take the large bag of dried mushrooms, dump into the blender, pour water in, turn it on. In one frenzied swoop of defiance against my ever safe, vigilant, BORING SELF WHO DOESN”T WANT TO DIE TO HIS FORMER SELVES EVERY moment and still expects safety. I must act quickly before the administrators in my… Read More 10 gram mushroom trip- The Heaven on Earth trip
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-peter-dagnes-podcast/id1477528504 The link for the apple podcasts is here, it may not be able to be found in search for a week or so, that’s just how it works. I will be posting all of the podcasts onto youtube as videos as well, but there will be music and sound effects on the podcasts too.… Read More Check out The Peter D’Agnes Podcast! 1st episode is up!
The trouble is ….. you think you were meant to be understood, you were only meant to be felt You think you have a position in relation to something, you don’t You are everything, everything is you you think permanence exists, security exists, stability exists………they don’t exist You think there are words that can capture… Read More The trouble is… you think you were meant to be understood (poem)
“Every form of refuge has it’s price.” -Lyin’ Eyes, Eagles “The more real you become, the more unreal the world becomes.” – John Lennon Never apologize for what you are. I want you in all your weirdness and all your FREAK. I want to be challenged in every single interaction I have with you, because… Read More The thing you are embarrassed to admit you love, and dream about all the time ….that’s your soul mission.
Now I see it crystal clear, I’ve dissipated the fear, closing the gap, from being a sap to knowing my power, like an iron tower I walk with God, no need for a prod the heart want’s me dead, I walk to my execution gladly, I’m on mission, for attrition, from my self and… Read More Teach me to play the heart the way you do, I’ve never felt it opened that way before (poem)
A lot of people, if they spent a lot of time in close quarters, spent a week living with me for example………….. I would be able to feel you and all the repressed emotions that you think no one knows about or sees, because I literally FEEL the emotions of others as if they are… Read More High-sensitive empaths lead a lonely life, because they can feel the entire story of your heart shortly after meeting you and have to pretend like they don’t
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside, It’s hard, but it’s harder to ignore it If they were right, I’d agree, but it’s them you know not me Now there’s a way and I know that I have to go away I know I have to go. … Read More Love asks: will you die to your former selves and let me teach you 1000 new ways to love today?
BECAUSE it means: -phonies and fakes know they can’t run their game with me or use me as their role player to read their script of a fake life. I’m not a well trained Rockette on Broadway who is obsessed with learning my moves down to the millisecond and inch, I don’t care if you… Read More I’m awkward and I love that about myself
I want to hear the things that make your eyes sparkle and give you that flutter in the deepest part of your heart. I want to cry with you, hold you while you cry out the pain like the heart opened warrior you are. I want to feel that warrior heart, I see your… Read More I WANT THE REAL YOU. Not winner you, not tough you, not cool you. I want to feel the beautiful pain inside you.